I don't want to end up like Poe

I don't know what to feel, what to write right know. I don't know if I've had enough sleep. I honestly don't know.

I spent most of my current free time doing almost nothing. I should be chasing my dreams; being a famous, succesful writer by finishing my book projects, which are still all on-progresses.

But here I am, writing this journal. I was happy for a few seconds this morning, currently not feeling good. I listened to Tomorrow Never Came (by Lana del Rey) for the first time and I loved it. I had quite a good brunch but then I felt bad on spending too much money while I knew shouldn't be.

I got two hours nap and it did feel good.
Maybe I shouldn't drink too much water afterwards.

I feel like I need put something more on this post but I have no idea left, so maybe I'm going to leave it like this.

In order to get to the places I want, I know I had to abandon my feelings and just write, yet it is hard. Very hard at times. Sometimes I can only work a few.
But I don't want to say I can't.

For now, despite all of my "I don't know"s, I'm  sure about one thing: I don't want to end up like Poe, though I know I want to be just as famous as him.